Title: "I’m going to smile..." Date: March 2006

I phased, not caring who heard, or what they thought. I ran and ran. I ran straight toward my house and stayed in the forest, right by the edge, ears down and eyes mournful. A soft pained howl escaped my mouth. Leah... I thought desperately. It was the first time I had ever wanted to speak, truly. But... she knew what it was like to love someone who didn't like you back. I needed that now.

"What the hell?" I muttered to myself as I ran towards the woods I had been of running myself not wanting to be around while Sam and Emily planned their wedding. My paws pounded against the mossy forest. Why the hell aren't you in school Seth? I growled.

Please Leah, later... I'll go back tomorrow... Or the day after that... I added in my head, forgetting for a minute that she could just as easily hear that. I let out a soft whine and sat. Leah... I let out another soft whine, and lay flat on the ground with my chin on my two paws which were together as one. My ears flapped down and eyes went big.

I frowned my eyes suddenly narrowing as I started to run faster towards him. God he sounded awful. What's wrong? I demanded somewhat harsh.

I lifted my two paws and covered my eyes, letting out another soft whine.

I gulped my feet pounding faster now till I skitted to a hault infront of him. I barked.

I uncovered my eyes slowly and stood again. I shook my head and whined. Life sucks... I whined quietly.

I nudged him. Unphase... I hissed. WTF was wrong with Seth?

I shook my head and and sat back down.

I scowled. Stupid stubborn siblings...I muttered to myself. I crouched down at eye level nudging him with my nose and mouth. What's wrong? I wasn't able to hide how worried I was.

I let out another soft whine and leaned my head against her neck. Katrina... I whined, hunching my shoulders.

My body tensed up. What about her? Suspcion rushed through me.

She doesn't want to be with me... I've imprinted on someone who's taken. And what's worse, one of my best friends. She has a boy friend, Lea. A boy friend. And she says we can't... it's to weird... I let out another whine and laid back down, covers my eyes once more.

I nudged him as pain flashed through me. Damn all imprinting. It made me want to run under a bus. It's okay Seth...you'll be fine...you just have to be strong. I nudged him with my nose again. You'll feel better and there's no way no couldn't like you...

I'm trying... but it hurts. I smiled... told her I was okay. But every time I see her my hearts going to crack. I know it... She doesn't want to be with me. I slowly pulled one paw away to look up at Leah.