"“We always long for the forbidden things, and desire what is denied us.” Date: TBD

"Something wrong Paul?" I asked when I started to get a weird look from him. It was making me feel selfconscieous. I leaned up and kissed him lightly.

"Nothing." I replied, leaning down to kiss her with a grin. I deepened it, and ran my hand through her hair. "Are we moving along now?" I asked her, breaking away for a moment.

"Mmm?" I asked propping myself up a little and arching my back so I could see him better. "You mean like have sex?" I asked a look of horror and shock on my face. "Because I'm really not ready for that yet..." My face turned a little pink. I kissed him again.

I sighed and broke away. "You took of your shirt, Rach. Just a bit of action?" I leaned down and lay my head on her shoulder. Slowly I moved my face close and kissed her cheek. I ran my hand through her hair and sighed, glancing once again to her face. "You wanna take off your shorts?" I grinned jokingly and kissed her.

I kicked his leg. "I'm serious Paul I really don't want to..."I snuggled aganst him resting my on his chest. "I just don't feel ready yet...soon though." I said feeling like I was constantly repeating myself. God I was probably a horrible girlfriend.

"Ouch..." I sighed and rolled onto my side so she could put her head down on me. I started playing with her hair, and looked up toward the ceiling as I talked. "You keep saying SOON, Rach. When? I love you to death and you know I'd wait forever...just I love you so much that...well you can't blame me for wanting you. I want to you know, REALLY be with you. And you know I'd never leave you. So...when?"

"yes I know...but I just feel insecure.." I leaned over and kissed him. "I'm so used to having crap boyfriends that lie to me...that my instincts are just telling me you're the same even though I know you aren't. "

"Ouch, Rachel. Come on...I told you already. You know how much I love you. You don't have to feel like that." I sighed, and looked back down at her. "Why don't you trust me?"

I felt bad and leaned up kissing him again, " I know I just don't feel comfortable yet...we've only been dating for a month.."

I sighed again. "Fine then. I'll wait. If that's what you really want..." I leaned down and kissed her. "I'll wait for you." I was trying to make her feel sure that I would, I knew she probably wanted to hear that. But the truth was, I would wait. It wasn't like I was in love with her because of her body... heck, if she never wanted to be with me at all- I'd still be in love with her.

I smiled up at him kissing him softly on the lips. "Thanks.." I murmured running my hand through his hair and sitting up again pulling up with me. I slide back unto his lap deepening the kiss my fingers sliding down his chest and running along his waistline.

"Anytime, baby." I grinned back, kissing her. I grinned into it and put my hands back on her hips. As her hands roamed over my chest I smirked, knowing all too well she was doing it again. I grinned and leaned forward, deepening the kiss.

Deepening the kiss even more I pressed myself into him my hands not leaving his waist line as I continued to kiss him passionately. I could never get sick of kissing him.

I grinned and kissed her back. Just wait for it...

<< NO SEX>>

I deepened the kiss even more pressing myself up against him even more if that was possible. I pushed him back unto the bed again. My hands slide along his pant line.

My heart started beating a bit faster, which was some what unusual. Calm it, Paul. Okay... just kiss her. Don't do anything. I think she likes it better... O_o

I kissed her deeply, but evenly. I kept my hands on her hips and went no where else, trying not to smile. Her hands were at my pants... Rachel's hands were by my pants.

I continued to kiss him starting to feel really turned on by the way he was kissing me. I slowly slide off his belt dropping it to floor before going back to kissing him.

Holy shit. I tried to keep normal, but I was getting pretty excited here. Oh god... I kept my kissing even, but deepened it slowly. I didn't make any movement hoping she'd continue.

I bit back a moan trying to control myself and not rip his clothes off right now as I continued to kiss him hungrily. My hands moved to slide down his pants, which I kicked off the bed once they were off him.

I tried not to go mental, but inside I probably was. Oh my God... I forced my self to stay, wondering if she would stop should I try to take her shorts off. I kissed her back, keeping the same pace as I had for the past two minutes. The way she was kissing me made me want to do a whole lot more then take her clothes off, and it was starting to drive me nuts how much I wanted to kiss her back. I was scared though that the second I started she would stop. I wasn't sure what she would permit me to do, but I hoped it would be a lot and soon.

I moaned quietly deepening the kiss even more and pressing myself into him as I continued the kiss only pulling away to breathe heavily. I started kissing him on the jaw and neck. That's when my cellphone rang vibrating against my leg and his chest. "Crap." I muttered sitting up to answer. "Yes?"

Oh god, she was moaning. I grinned as she started to kiss my jaw, and closed my eyes. Oh yeah... And then it stopped. My 5 minutes of heaven came to a sudden crash as the damn device in her pocket rang.

Whoever rang her, was dead.

***

On the other side of the this call, a kid was sitting at his desk, tapping a pencil against his notebook.

"Hey, Rachel." said Seth, with a small puzzled expression. "So, I need help with a project... it's not a bad time is it?"

I ran a hand through my hair shooting Paul an apologetic smile as I sat up on his stomach. "No, no it's fine Seth...so what did you want to know?" I chewed my lower lip.

I glared and sat up on my elbow. Wait... Seth? CLEARWATER????? Oh that kid was dead. BEYOND dead. He was pulp. He was going to be in some SERIOUS pain soon... "Hang up." I muttered, glaring at Rachel. I wanted to continue.. now damnit...

***

"Cool." Seth grinned and leaned back in his desk chair. "So, I have to do this project on like... Genetically Modified Foods or something. I have NO idea what it is. And I mean, with you going to college and everything I figured you might know... So, I'm supposed to like write my opinion on it or something?"

I glared at Paul and shook my head before mouthing "No" to him. Gosh he was impatient. I frowned figuring I might need to go over and look it over. "Um I'm not to sure I think I'll need to see it...when's it due." I chewed on my finger nail glancing over at Paul again who had a really weird expression on his face. " Tomorrow!?!?! Okay, I'll be right over...one sec okay." I turned to Paul holding my cellphone against me chest. "I'm really sorry babe...I need to go." I smiled apologetically.